The worst part of being motherless in Mother's Day is not the bombardment of Stores trying to make you buy stuff for Mother's Day. It's dealing with the fact that I'm never seeing my Mom ever again for as long as I live.
Fuck! I miss my Mom so fucking much! The pain is always there but it flares up on Mother's Day, her deathday and her birthday. Not even drowning my sorrows in alcohol has helped. Why can't the pain go away? I can't let go of the pain, because it's all I have. What kind of son forgets his Mother's voice, her scent, what she looked like.
My heart yearns for One Day... to Fulfill a childish fantasy. To have closure... I KNOW that it's impossible, but that's what the heart yearns for.
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